Why put OFF tomorrow, what you {I} CAN do today?

I have-to start with the erasing process, why put OFF today, what you {I} CAN do today?  I am NOT deceiving myself, I know I am NOT truly obliterating, if you will, ALL memories and/or, interactions of this life I led, her.  Nevertheless, I have-to try to IGNORE as much as possible, everything thus far.  It is MUCH too PAINFUL to KEEP whatever existence I have had, and manage to still be or, pretend to be HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYONE, bearing NO exceptions, that I have LOVED and/or CARED for, has HURT me.  Some have minimally HURT me, and few have HURT me to the MAGNITUDE, that has REDUCED and FRACTURED my HEART, SOUL and my psyche tremendously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It’s clearly obvious that some people treat feelings, carelessly and without much emotion.  But, I, on the other hand, when I LOVE and CARE for someone, I’m ALL in.  My FEELINGS and EMOTIONS, even if they are in the INFANTRY stage, should NOT be played with or, treated with such a lack, of care.  This RECENT HURT has taken an EMOTIONAL toll because of where my HEART is, and how once again, the resurrection of REJECTION was REBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It just signifies and punctuates that regardless of who I LOVE and CARE for, I MEAN NOTHING to them, PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL this life have led has been MUCH of an embarrassment, to say the least.  I have BORE crosses, even when the BEARING was MORALLY, and/or, EMOTIONALLY, someone else’s duty.  I have accepted responsibility of my own fault, but also, when the responsibility was, someone else’s.

I’m DONE writing about ANYTHING and ANYONE, because by me writing about it just consistently KEEPS the SLIGHT of HAND, WIGGLING through my WEARY soul and my, FRAGILE HEART.  “Pun Intended!”  I HOPE and PRAY EVERYONE who has HURT me, to ANY MAGNITUDE, is HAPPY with themselves and this serves up a meaningful NOTCH, on any POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  As a FINAL note, I would really like to know what EYES Michael sees through, because if this is RESONATE of me being on my HIGH-HORSE, I would like to get OFF at the NEXT STOP, PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My exit is COMING and it will be DONE, in secrecy.  It will be DONE with the SAME concern, EVERYONE had, toward me.  NO ONE will know anything, and I will NOT take anything but the clothes on my back, and my baby boy, Jewad.  There's NOTHING else of value, to take along.

This is, the END!!!