The hell with time...

The hell with time, time does not heal wounds.  Time may make it easier to deal with but, it does NOT negate the HURT.  And, time also wounds the heals.  Time does not bring you together, with the one you LOVE.  Time does NOT negate the fact that the one you LOVE, will eventually, be LOVED by someone else.

Time will NEVER give me ONE more chance to see the BELLA Pearl or, say good-bye.  Time just sucks and quite frankly, has rarely been, on my side.

As much as I am SUFFERING, I would NEVER change the fact that I met the BELLA Pearl, despite previously saying it was one of the worst days, of my life.  That statement was said solely out of sadness of NOT being with the one I LOVE, especially when my feelings are so unlike they have EVER been before and because my baby’s quality of life, has been severely diminished.  I know the BELLA Pearl gave me feelings and emotions that I NEVER felt before and I will ALWAYS remember that but, why with something so BELLA, does it have to come with a DOUBLE-EDGED sword, with so MUCH pain?

With these times, I long to be alone but tomorrow, my Mom needs to come with me because she has to serve the papers, because legally, I'm not allowed.  I just WISH I could be alone tomorrow but there goes time again, it's not on my side.