The First Cut Just Got Deeper...

The first cut just got deeper than I ever expected it to, OWE!!!  

My heart is aching and crying tears of sadness, and it hurts so badly.  I know it's natural to develop feelings for someone, and it's not of any fault to the one who has the feelings or, to whom you may have feelings for.  But, I don't understand why when I develop feelings for someone, I ALWAYS get HURT in some capacity, or another.  Why was it so easy for the individual to treat my feelings, like they were nothing?  I don't understand how people could be so desensitized whereas, I am so emotional.

I didn't cry tears of sadness like this for my soon to be ex-spouse, when I filed for divorce.  Cliche or not, the first effing cut is the DEEPEST, for sure.