It's a struggle, but I must relent!

It's a struggle, but I must relent.  I cannot continue to hold this bitter feeling, deep down in my soul.  I was raised in an Old School household, where you're taught to keep family undercurrents behind closed doors.  I can understand why I was taught to keep things private, for purposes of not airing our dirty laundry.  Alas, keeping your family undercurrents private can have "detrimental consequences," for years to come.  This detriment can be immediate or affect you, years later.  I, at least in my opinion, have been affected both immediately and years later, thus far.  It doesn't matter if someone wants to place upon a brave face and allege, I'm dealing with it.  There are some things in life that are NOT easily manageable, or easy to deal with in any capacity.  It is, in my opinion, that people expect you to get over ANY obstacle in life and make the best of it.  I agree with that plan, just as much as the next guy.  Consequently, there are some things in life that make the deepest cut and because of the depths of injury, it's harder to mask.  Why should anyone be expected to mask an injury?  Are people in life so obtuse, that I must pretend for the sake of their ignorance?  Well, I have done that for years and not so much for people in life, but for people in my life.  I can NO LONGER do it, because my tolerance is much less as I age.  Don't get me wrong, I know I'm not old but when you live a life for OTHERS, you tend to age much faster.  It's almost like you're a life for EVERYONE else, but yourself!!!