In my private, SUFFERING.

In my private suffering, my heart is ACHING for you.  The PAIN is unfamiliar and unlike ANY OTHER that I’ve experienced, in my life.  The BELLA Pearl is the FIRST of everything, especially that of LOVE and now, HEARTACHE. 

I know I will never have the chance to see and speak to the BELLA Pearl and that’s in-part, my fault.  But, they knew that I was definitely-SWEET on them, so when they never confronted me face-to-face, spoke to me or, called me, my insecurity set in.  It NEVER changed the LOVE I feel, it never changed the fact that I was anxious to experience LOVE with them but, it definitely-made me feel perhaps, you’re wrong. 

I know ALL this dwelling is NOT going to change ANYTHING, I didn’t get that last chance to see and speak to the BELLA Pearl being that for one, they didn’t want it and two, with them being in California.  Perhaps if I had the first of everything the BELLA Pearl gave me, good bad or indifferent, perhaps it would be easier to navigate.  So, to punctuate that “the FIRST CUT” and also in this case, “the FIRST BEAUTIFUL LOVE like no other,” it is in-fact, the DEEPEST.  Not to mention, the MOST painful.