I'm screwed.

I’m screwed, to say the least.  I constantly think of the individual, even during my entire conversation with Michael.  And, it’s not just because he was ribbing me, it’s more than that for sure.  Whatever the individual made come alive in me, makes me intensely long for them constantly.

I don’t understand how I became so smitten other than the laws of attraction, which is clearly obvious.  But dang, I feel like I’m a teenager with a first crush and it’s frustrating.  I got it and now I would just like to void it but ha, that’s NOT easy when you like how you feel.

I wish I could translate everything with the individual and put it, into another.  That would solve my problem.