If I stopped thinking of .. ......., perhaps, that would be half the battle!

I have been trying really hard not to think about .. ....... but, it's NOT easy....just saying.  I mean, seriously, there is a constant reminder within my heart to go along with, within my household.  Especially, when my baby boy runs upstairs because he is being affected by, to use an "infamous" term, his environment.  Geese, it's so HARD NOT knowing what he is being affected by but I can say, it's emotionally traumatizing for me too {I'm sure NOT quite, like him} and the NOT knowing or, being able to help him, HURTS me!  He is such a BRIGHT light in my life and I OWE him so MUCH for being in my life, for ALL of these years.  I just wish I could start over from the first moment I saw him {MINUS the other circumstances in my life} and have him 100% healthy and for a much LONGER, time-frame.

As much as he is a “bright light” in my life, I only wish he could cure my hurt ache…….across the board.