I just can't, HIDE it!!!

I go out whether it be for an errand or, to walk my dog and it’s NOT easy.  I see people I know, and I see neighbors, but I am just NOT feeling talkative or social.  I am NOT good at hiding my emotions good, bad, or indifferent.

It’s ironic, when I was talking to Michael, the piece of crap, just a week prior to finding out about the individual’s departure and unbeknownst to anything at the time, other than what I shared.  Which was, how the individual has such positive, calming effect on me and Michael said, you’re glowing.  Of course, talking about the individual also precipitated thoughts in my head, and obviously they affected me in a way that was written, ALL over my face.  Now, it makes me wonder what my neighbors are thinking, especially when I am usually friendly and talkative to them, only to be withdrawn.  I know I had a couple of people already question me but, I don’t want to talk about it.  I NEVER want to verbalize the intensity of this HEARTACHE to anyone, so if it can be seen on my face, so be it.

THE FIRST CUT, IS THE DEEPEST AND MOST PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!