He'll never understand.

He’ll never understand and it’s okay, this heartache is my problem.

Talking to him every day is obviosly not a good idea, so I guess I’ll taper off.  Now he says I did it to myself and to some degree, he’s right again.  But since the BELLA Pearl obviously has more guts than me, so I guess I was hoping they took the initiative for face to face or a phone call.  Ironically, I’m not angry at the BELLA Pearl, just extremely HURT, especially since my insecurity I’m sure didn’t help matters.  And it seems the only one that appears angry is Michael, because all he knows how to do is rub my nose, in my mess.  I’m different than that, I rather work through a situation, talk and try to resolve it.  Rubbing someone’s nose in a situation, an extremely painful situation, is down-right rude and cold.

I would like to know what he’s so angry about, the BELLA Pearl is gone, and I’m NEVER going to see or speak to them again.  You’d think he’d be happy but, he’s not.  Well, alas, that makes two of us that aren’t happy.

Iris by: the Google Dolls, says it well.  You’re the closest to Heaven than I’d ever been; I don’t want the World to see me because I don’t think that they’d understand, etc.