He has serious problems.

I’m not sure how people perceive and/or ascertain, feelings or matters of the heart, in general.  But, for me, I take it to heart, Pun Intended.  I am VERY loyal to the person I have the feelings for and quite frankly, loyal to myself because of those feelings, I have.  And in this case, for the BELLA Pearl.  Everything that is whirling around, crashing through, or at times, flying like a beautiful butterfly, is ALL for the BELLA Pearl, NO ONE else.  I don’t juggle regardless of what I may or may not, be going through emotionally.

As far as the BELLA Pearl, he wants the telephone number of the Doctor’s new employment, so he can call for me and make them, call me.  What?  First-of all, you cannot make anyone do anything.  Secondly, I would NEVER impose upon and/or DISRESPECT the Doctor especially at their, new employment.  That is so FOUL on so many levels and I wouldn’t want it done to me, so I wouldn’t do it to someone else.  Nevertheless, someone that I LOVE, RESPECT and ADORE, such as the BELLA Pearl.  I would NEVER again want to be responsible directly or indirectly, for any negative banter like what happened at the AMC.  That’s another reason having NO closure, HURTS so much.  I certainly would not have dwelled on the subject, but she deserves an explanation and an apology.  Giving the BELLA Pearl what she is duly deserving of, is another form of closure.  Having a good-bye is another form, of closure and in my heart, I truly feel they are necessary.  But, it’s NOT my call the BELLA Pearl is in the driver’s seat and only they controlled what they wanted, upon their departure.  As much as it hurts me, NOT to be able to have those issues resolved, I must respect their space and boundaries. 

Matters of the heart suck because it involves so much sadness, endless tears and pure emptiness.