A vicious circle.

I have-to stop spinning my wheels with my emotions, because it is NOT conducive when under, extreme stress.  These emotions, although they differ greatly in some capacity, they are NO different then the emotional trauma I sustained, during my union to the abuser!!!

I am allowing myself to become consumed with these feelings for a certain individual, and I NEED to STOP!!!  When I see that face it drives me BOTZ, to say the least.  I’m NOT one who falls easy so just picking up and aligning myself with someone else, is NOT simple.  I always go in wholeheartedly and to just be with someone else, just to forget about someone else, won’t be easy.  I know it’s something I NEED to do and where to start, is also difficult.

There has-to be something wrong with me because it appears that ALL I fall for are those, who taunt me!!!  Perhaps that is ALL I am worthy of or, perhaps there are some obvious attributes about myself, that draws the attraction.  I don’t know but I do know that I need to zero in on the issue or, it will NEVER change.